TOMORROW IS THE DAY TO INK!!!






PLEASE PLEASE ALLOW ME TO GO


THROUGH THIS SMOOTHLYYYYYYYYY OKAYYYYYYYYY





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FCUK!
Whatever your name is, wii? fuck it, what a gay name. please take a good look at yourself in the mirror.
the face of a beggar, dress like a beggar, that only have o lvl qualification.
pls okay, why you got the face of beggar don't wanna be one and be a small small coordinator?
goodness, breadth smell like shit too. god, lips so black, did you grow up by drinking ink instead of milk? eat shit instead of porridge? or never brush teeth.
never brush never rinse please go clean your teeth also lah. or no money?
ya, forgot you're just a small coordinator. as small as a baby's penis.
or perhaps smaller than that.

knn no wonder words coming out from your mouth smell too. god, still gonna work 1 long term with you, will die of your shity breadth man.

helllllllloooooooo hamuni, look at the time now! it's 4.27am and i'm still awake!
just finished playing viwawa :D :D level up! HAAS

god, nowadays have been slping late man..
slept at 6 yesterday and today... think slping at 5 alr bah..

MUNI COMPLAINT WHY I NEVER BLOG, so here i am for him :D

ogayyyy lah, stop here, tmr still gonna work man.

nights!


I LOVE HAMUNI XOXO
and you better accept all the comments! xxxx

Things are really so random......

We overcome this problem together and promises are made..
thought there's this saying, 'Promises are meant to be broken', but i belief, really! I belief we can do this together..
Even if it happens again, i'm sure of what to do, and we're able to handle it together.. right?


We're couples lehhhhhhh... can can okay!



Thanks gen! For the experiences and all.. thanks alot honey xoxo
I'm sure on your side, things are much better too right, as you said it. HAAS
We're stronggggggggg :DDDD

what did i do wrong again.
it's not wrong to say what i feel like here okay....
and TOLD YOU MANY MANY MANY MILLION TIMES, though it's only once but once is enough, what i say inside doesn't mean i wanna do it!!!!!!!!
fcuk. what's so difficult to understand..
thought i'm gonna have a nice slp later on but no, it's a NO again.


how many days of insomia am i gonna get, it's really annoying that when you're tired but you can't get to sleep!

and this is the last time i'm gonna say.
I'M NOT FUCK AND TIRED OF YOU BUT I JUST FEEL FUCK UP AND TIRED OF THE ARGUMENTS WE HAD!

DO YOU UNDERSTAND? DO YOU? DO YOU? DO YOU?

GOD, I REALLY DON'T UNDERSTAND THIS.

JUST FUCK ME UP WITH EVERYTHING
FUCK SHIT ON ME OKAY.. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK

TODAY IS A FUCK UP DAY.
PAPERS NOT REALLY WELL DONE, KEY LOST, A WAR AFTER ANOTHER.
FUCK.
HOW LONG IS THIS GOING TO CONTINUE.
HOW MANY MORE WARS AM I GOING TO GO THROUGH IT..
CAN JUST FUCK ME ALL THE SHIT AT ONE GO AND NOT ONE AFTER ANOTHER.


and please take note I'M NOT SCOLDING ANYONE.
just FUCK OKAY.
i need something to vent on...... i really can't take it..

i'm sorry but i'm one who cannot tolerate things, anything unhappy i'll just show it..
so over that thing today.... you know should what i'm referring to, i'm just mainly FUCK JEALOUS OKAY.
what's wrong with being jealous.
and idk if it's psycological or just the fact, CHEATING IS ALWAYS ON MY MIND NOW.
not saying you're cheating but, there are some things that are really un-explainable.
FUCK.

you can't blame me, you really can't. you can say i don't trust you but i really dono what has become of me that why trust is not in me anymore.

maybe, because of your friends around you... idk but... you know how they're like yourself. so,, naturally idk.

i really don't know what else i can do anymore.

it's really unlike me to aplogise today because being jealous still have to do that, i really can't take it down.. but just not to make things worst, i've to do that.

Sorry...
loves xoxo

goodness, tmr is my chinese O paper and idk how i should go about studying it..
my mind is completly in a mess, idk what i should do and there's no one to support me..
even my love one is having a war with me, who only know how to say, never go out? never go out? other than that nothing else.
fcuk fcuk fcuk lah...
not a word of concern coming out from the mouth..
even ppl who are much less closer to me remember that i'm having paper tmr! shit it okay.
but nvm, i doubt he remembers it.. so forget it..

but i'm feeling better i guess..
was cropping up at home whole day packing my stuffs and bestie call saying he was at plaza with sn and clique.
idk, it really feel great to meet up with them.. rather than staying home whole day and about to explode..

but still... worrying bout my papers ):


i got the urge to call you, but i'm sure you're definitely outside playing or whatever it is.
yes, i don't want to accept the fact and face up to reality that you're out playing. Cause that would make my mind run wild WILD WILDDDDDDDD!

But i hope you still remember you got a girlfriend. even if we had wars and everything... wtf is it that you're replying so fcuking slow and short.
i thought everything should be okay if i initiate the msg.
AND yes i did! I msged you telling i'm going beach later.. the msg is not in an angry tone, i addressed you as Baby. You know i don't when we're having wars. But i did! But what i get in return is a fcking short reply "oh okay, i'm gg work." fcuk
shouldnt have initiate everything.. and this shouldn't be happening if that day, we didn't watch Hensel and Gretel.

idk wtf is wrong with me but.. fck. idk. i hope you're cheating on me man...
it's not a typo but i really hope you're CHEATING on me.. and confessed to me that you CHEATEDDDDDDDDDDDD! CHEATEDDDDDDDDDDDD! CHEATED OKAY!


tmr is my paper. though language paper don't need to worry a thing about it.. but it's still imp to me... nothing seems to go right now..


I'm running out of my sweetest drug already...
It should be gone long ago, why did i replenish it?

sick and tired of everything..
even going out late at night..
this weekends i've been staying at home... which i don't really feel bored at all..
everything's so boring now.. go out so late doing nothing but have to waste money on cab fare. don't you agree?

not just that but also really really sick of everything, just feel like doing anything i like, whenever i want.....


fcuk.

i'm now watching A Shot At Love with Tlia Tequila at mtv.com
GOD! after watching much epi, i think guys are really..... like wth?
BUT BUT, there this guy name Kyle, is so damn handsomeeeeeeee xoxoxoxo

haas,okayokay, why are guys wth?
they lost the game or something, they would dig out the ladies lingerie and play around with it.. -.-
HOW CAN THEY DO THAT TO THE GIRLS?
though they're lesbian but they're still ladies right... god god god!
and and...

i think Tlia did not shave her ****** area hair.
cos a guy carried her up when they're so called having a 'loser prom night photoshoot' and when he's putting her down, accidentally lifted up her dress and she's not wearing any undergarment.
though it was sensored, still somehow can see a black? patch there..
idk if it is... but ya... that's just what i think. HAAAAAS

wondering why all superstars don't do shaving man..
even cecilia and guilian... goodnessssssss.
SUPERSTAR leh, even we normal ppl do shave okay.... alamak!

but still, Tlia is damn super hot. that makes me feel like being her les partner. LOLS!

OH OH! there's this game they played, i feel is damn damn gross..
boys and girls, challenged to see who drink the most shots of sauces. can be any sauce, tatar, chilli, lime sour or lemon or dono lah... too much to mention.

okay, the girls won. And you know what! winner are to eat PIG'S VAGINA to prove their love. first to finish got to have a special date with Telia and have to pick out a guy to go along with their date.
goodnesssss.
PIG VAGINA leh. eeeeek. damn grosssss. feel like puking man when i saw them eating.
many of them puke lah..... and so unfair man... the one speacial guy doesn't have to torture himself to have a date.

wonder if that's reward for winning the game or torture.
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKS.
ask me eat i definitely won't eat..

i wonder if he will eat it for me to prove his love...

today is a friday, and i'm home early!!! which i think it's a good thing :D
skipped school, heeehheeeeheeeesss so woke up late afternoon, then headed to enous then to meet watagen aka wataxuan(meixuan) heeehheeeehheees xxxx and emily, gen's secondary school friend (:
went to long john to have dinner chill for a while. cos emily saw her friend so they catch up a while (:
after that headed to coffee club. initially wanted to go Chips, but we dont feel like going home late so no point going drinking, so just go somewhere like can have a bite or drink something instead.
had Muddy Mud Pie, Ice Mango Tango and Strawberry Milkshake.
talked alot.. laughter and everything..
headed home at about 11? and so cooincidence kenny's at my house downstair having supper at the coffee shop. so catch up a lil and headed home alr (:


sometimes i really don't understand, male and female belongs to two different world.
this is really a common question for everyone..
so why do we still need each other and live together. For satifaction?
it's really so hard to communicate with one another.

why do guys cheat? yes, not everyone so i belief that 1% of the guys are really trustable. but what makes them cheat when they got a girlfriend. idk if this had happen to me before anot, but from what i know and see, not yet but who knows. Let's not talk about trust but i belief, even if we trust them, they will cheat and then will bullshit about trusting them thing.
there are really alot to talk on this topic and never endless.

i hope, i'm getting the 1% guy and even if the 99% guy happen on me, i don't wish to know either unless i caught them red handed.

had my first Venter Era appointment today, with my mommy....
hmmm, dono if i should say it's successful, becos firstly, mommy didn't support me by buying..... she says she's too healthy alr, why does she need extra thing when it doesn't work on her at all..
that's the unsuccessful part..
what thing that is i'm glad with? Is not that i'm happy with myself that i perform well or something. i perform badly, i'm suppose to do a support closing but, i can rarely speak out my views, my thoughts. i thought i could but i only say a few words and was stumbled. which i'm quite disappointed in myself.
okay, thing i'm glad with is that, mommy didn't disapprove of me joining the office.
and everything went well, just the support closing and can't pursuade mommy to buy.
BUT! not because that the product is bad, seriously i don't think why the product is bad, nor is it 100% good, just that... it's worth buying lah.
PREVENTION IS BETTER THAN CURE WHAT!!!!! :D

Idk, there's alot of thing going throught my mind now.. confused.
but i'm ending here. night!

Went to school as usual :D
During our break, or rather... we skipped eng? Cos after marking attendance we went off, Mrs Rai not here again..
we went Guan Yin Temple to pray pray.. cos shixian wanna go so i just do the same loh, not harm either :D
den after class, waited for baby to come meet me.. and waited for darn long! so pissed okay.. but after awhile.. okay with it lah..
headed to bugis, had Tori Q as lunch (:
then headed to Gate 13 to measure my body length..
GONNA DO IT NEXT FRIDAY!!!! XXXXXXS

today, there's a girl there doing the rib part, which i'm gonna ink there too.
everyone's telling me how fcking pain it is, when inking on the bones, can hear the bone *gu lu gu lu* sound.....! Baby's trying to scare me and don't want me to ink...
can see that you're quite unwilling baby, or maybe very unwilling... but no choice nah.. you never do before mah.... so (:


Left is Shawn, who's going to ink me. Right Baldwin

kinda nervous but excited! the girl do until like wanna cry like that. OMGGGGSX! nvm, i'm sure i can tolerate all the way..... *hopefullly ogayyyy)

after that, headed to UOB plaza for work.
goodness, i'm so tired and sleepy when working.... plus PLUS the weather do fcking hot and humit! which is so annoying..... !!!

so after work, chill at the plaza there with gen.
had some girly girly talksssss (:

OLD SHOE: truly treat it, but sometimes the "worn out" part will happen again

NEW SHOE: treat it so dearly in the begining afterwhich, treat it like any other shoe that worn before.





I LOVE MY BABY XOXOXO

TARDIESSSSS

SUNDAY
so angry!!! the guys are always having guys-night-out!
how can they leave their girlfriends outside...!!!
sometimes i don't understand baby man.... why everything also so blur... go out never plan with them de leh... even when it's GNO(guy-night-out) he also dono man.... HOW CAN THAT BE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CANNOT STAND IT LEH...

was suppose to go cafe delma with the gen and shiyin.. but shiyin gonna stick with jerome.. and also gen and i doesnt have much cash with us, so canceled.
then they suggest to join the guys to go drinking..
everything plan alr then went preparing JJ den say it's GNO! kinda angry then.. idiot.
never say properly... so i just go meet gen at cine.
really got no idea wher to go man.. a few places that we can go..
Mind cafe, a cafe that can play board games.. or the pub beside it that can smoke sheesa.
we chose mind cafe, so we walked there.
feeling hungry, we went center point to eat (:
meanwhile, we asked vanny if wanna comes out (: i love her man! cos she just so steady to come out (:

so while waiting, we went to check out the price. mind cafe open till 11pm, so no point staying we went to the pub instead (:

finally she arrived, went to that place.. chill talk crap. it has been a long time since i met my babe! XXXX

gen gen (:


van van (:

then, we decided to watch movie! HAAS so random.
went cine to watch Made of Honor.


not bad, maybe i would rate it 3/5.
cos i don't really like the ending when the male lead bumps in to snatch the bride. it's like so normal loh... nothing special bout the ending. but overall is still okay (:

watch till 3 plus then headed home alr..
and.... I GOT A FREE RIDE HOME! WHY?
because i've got no cash with me and i can only pay by nets.
unfortunately, uncle's nets machine declined my card. idk why... so uncle just say NEVERMIND!!! HAAAAS
really got no cash with me man... luckily the uncle never insist on me paying or what. phewwwww~
hope all taxi drivers are like this. :D


MONDAY

woke up at 2, then headed to Ventre Era. today's is a dry talking...
plus i'm so tired. xxxx
basically today they just plan for me the appointment and stuffs and i'm starting my first appointment tmr! with my mum..
haven tell her about it yet... kinda nervous and scared...
cos mommy is also in this network marketing trade......
!!!!!!!!!!
idk, just see how's tmr. i'm so tired now....


this is so ridiculous okay, how can your boyfriend not msg you telling that he's out and stuff. it's normal what.. you tell me your phone no batt?.. just finish charging?..
but when i called you you're outside alr okay!!!!
don't tell me you're rushing and whatever thing... no time to text me is a damn excuse okay.
not trying to make a big fuss but really very angry...
i hope next time when i do this to you, you better don't complain a single thing.

up early yesterday like 6 plus? cos i've to reach bukit botok csc by 8 latest 830 for work.
reach there, then i realised that i've been there before.. my sis friend's used to celebrate his birthday there at the wine bar.
din't take any photos.. ):
everything was alright lah...
after the whole event we play the water activities.. slide, wave pool, etc...
had a tiring day man...
den headed to sebas house for dinner..
everyone 's so tired... so we left at 12 to baby's place..
went to sky garden.. that's actualy a nice place to chill man... windy and everything..

okayokay! i gonna go cook now.. that idiot keep pestering me to cooooooook!

i'm so tired!!!!!
only had 4 hours of sleep yesterday.. den early morning had to head to schol alr.
AGAIN, was suppose to go Eunos, Ventra Era, after school at 1. but i skipped it....
cos i decided to go home first then head then so later doesn't have to travel here and there.
haiya, in the end just never go there jiu dui luh.
feel quite bad cos i've been putting aeroplane on them for this few days alr.... which is so bad lah.. "/

met up with angie later for some catch up and do a lil bit of shopping :D
din't see anything that catches my attention.. ):
and town is really bored, so we do nothing much just walk around and chill..




and then we met this guy at far east.
he's crazy man.. this is what had happen..
there's this ang mo, a girl that is around our age it think.. saw his art work and i think she's wanna buy so she went go ask how much are those art piece...
the moment she tap him, that crazy man just shouted at her to GET LOST!
real loud man... OMGGGGSX! then he treated like the girl got some disease like that, kept on sweaping his shoulder cos the girl just touched him... gooodnesss.
i think he's the one that got disease man...... -.-


den baby came to meet me.
we had dinner at cine den headed to his place (:


headed to tpy mac to slack after that.. cos feeling a lil hungry (: (:


I LOVE THIS PHOTO!!! XOXO


camwored alot.. but lazy to post all so just a lil (:






baby said when i smile with teeth showing out, don't look like me.. really? "/



NIGHTTTTTSS!

OMGZXZ! got back eng paper, still alright, kinda disappointed!
whatever, don't wanna talk about it anymore. and i just realised that my Chinese O papers are FCUKING NEXT NEXT MONDAY!!! this is just so fast okay -.-
and idk wth they put me at pespertyrent(sp??) sec when queensway sec is SO MUCH NEARER TO MY HOUSE????
ain't they suppose to alocate us to the school that is nearer to our place? ARGHHZ!

skip the work trg at Eunos again, i'm really tired. cos everytime go there is like..... SO BOREDDDDD. abit of time wasting man... so i just can't bring myself up to prepare and everything. so just skipped and later got ready for work at NLB.
there's this auntie, who's damn cute and... funny? LOLS!
video her doing aerobics. with gen, gonna post it up when she send to me (:

then baby came to meet me for dinner. shop around bugis cos we haven been shopping with each other for a very long time alr ):
he's been busy with his exam and i'm busy with my work or with gen XD
so really miss shopping with you baby!
gonna go town to shop around soon okayyyyyyyy xoxo


camwored abit while waiting for the time to pass to go meet the crews (:


DON'T LIKE IT WHEN MR CHAN PUT HAIRBANDDDDD !!!!!!





den to ahta(prata shop) to meet the tattoo crews.
just sit down talking crap eat prata (: with them i always feel like i so gong gong.
cos the language that they speak i'm always blurrrrrrr bout it. -.-
but overall.. fun though (: HAAS!


GONNA PUT A PHOENIX TATTOO ON MY BODY ASAP!!!!!

BUT WHO SHOULD I ASK TO DO..?? "/ "/
BABY? SHAWN? ERIC? "/

am at baby house now with gen (:
she's gonna do a painting as a gift for sebas for their 1st year anniversary (:
just finish work at tpy. everything's okay, normal. nothing much.


Felicia and Jessie, the instructors.


this aunty so funny, exercise wear dress!!!! and make ups. haiyoooooos (UOB PLAZA)



idk if should go home today anot, hmmm.. blog later! :D

just came back from working traingin at Eunos, Venture Era.
overall alright i guess. just hope to be promoted to ME(Manager Excultive(sp???)) by end of year or something!
i wanna get car insentive!!!!!! cos i swear i'm gonna take car lisence when i'm of the age man.

gonna see some funi. with my mommy later den to marina to meet gen gen for dinner (:

YES! I'M GONNA RENOVATE MY ROOM SOOOOOOOOOON.
chose a maroon red bed (: still thinking of what color of the wall i should paint to goes with my bedddd "/ any idea?

then headed to Marina Square to meet gen (:
had dinner and walk around chill chill.. there are alot of things that i wanna buy ogayyyy!

Roxy short pants $76
Roxy towel $??(din't see the price)
Topshop tops $23 and the other $30 something
Nike limited Ed Green & White bag $70 something

gonna get the short pants on Wed!
hopefully it's still there pleaseeeeeeee xxxx

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

was at baby's house till 6pm den rushed home change then to my grandma house (:
feel so great to see all my cousins. been some time since i last saw them alr..
and also my grandparents.
it's so distressing to see them getting older each day. they really aged alot.
but they're still kinda active! that's what i'm glad with. HAAS
cos there's a few times when i saw my grandma walking around at plaza.. so i hope she's still fine. no need say my grandpa, he's always that active. HAAS
still can babysit my lil cousins too (:
i promise myself to visit them often from now onwards. xxxx



SATURDAY

in fact, this sat wasn't really a good one for me, or maybe for the clique too.
started my day fine, went vivo to shop around awhile with chev and clique.
later at night went to meet gen and clique.
it's jerome birthday so ya (:
met them around 8 plus.. and i was quite surprised to see baby appear after that.
feeling awkard too.. and we totally are stranger for the whole night i swear.
chilled at starbucks, thinking of where to head. so after a long time of sitting down, they decided to go drinking at boat quay.
we were there late so quite a number of places were packed and some other problems.
so just settle down at golden cafe to eat.
well, don't wish to explain to much detail becos everyday was just so bad and some conflicts happened between the girls and guys.
in the end, headed to bishan to prawn, but think it's close or something?
so just sit at the coffee shop, consuming beer and snacks.

sat there for hours, and it's actually damn damn damn bored.
but i'm glad that things are fine between me and baby, gen and sebas (:
hopefully this won't happen again. ARGHGHHHHH!
headed home with baby then (:

FRIDAY

things are in a mess now..
fck it, whatever it is.. just gonna enjoy my day today with the girls (:

THURSDAY
after work, went town to shop for mother's day gift. but by the time we reached, almost all are closed ):


at bugis national library. they did some boxing thingi. but jessie did it in a very cool way. admire her!!!!!! XD


bad timing man. so just went ahead to grab something to eat (:
then headed to hard rock cafe with colleagues.


this band is really cool. they call themselves "Energy". they can sing damn well man.
gen and i had a hard time getting there cos we walked and the weather was like freaking humit and hot?????
damn, cabs are all hired too. so no choice..
but had alot of fun after that.
i thought we can end the day we joy but.....



din't want to post all photos up...... ):
idk what you guys are thinking man. it's not like we did anything wrong, hello?
you're the one being unreasonable and now it becomes my fault.
it's just a small simple call and you're doing that to her man. god.
and you czx, i thought you trust me and everything, who knows wtf you thinking after that.
really, and you said, "we better don't try anything funny". fck it okay.
we fcking did nothing wrong at all dude. think before you say okay!
you then don't try anything funny and don't make me bring up the past!
you know yourself who lied first. ya white lie so? you're drunk so can take those intimate pictures lah. fck.

this is the first offical i'm gonna have in public for so many years. HAAS
idk why but just got this feeling to blog while i'm working (:

had skipped 2 mid years papers alr ): (ss and geog)
it's kinda or rather damn bad as in, i'm in deep shit if i continue like this "/
ya lah, i never study for them but..... oh whatever. past alr!!!!!
just gonna study and study and study from now onwards! (:

so just headed to work with gen and nana at UOB plaza.
from now onwards gonna work every tue wed and thurs. not tiring cos the work is simply very simple. doesn't have to do much work just registration stuffs and ya (:
1 and half hour. but 5 mins job (: rest of time sitting down watching people doing aerobics! HAAS.
which made us feel like doing it too cos it's really fun!
which makes me miss dancing though "/ haven been dancing for quite long alr.
so disheartening to see people dance okayyyyyyy ):


mainly are people of the age 30s-50s.


btw, the instructors are quite cool!


gen and i camworing. too bored! HAAS.






and today is really a big sin for me and gen!
after work, headed to sakae for dinner. j treat! HAAS.

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gen, shev and nana.

gen and i were like so excited bout it cos we have been having sushi as dinner for the past 2 days alr but we limit ourselves. today's different, cos all of us are taking buffet so we order like..... OMGGGZ!






10 PLATES OF SALMON! MEANING 20 SALMON SUSHI!!!


haas, we stuff alot of the rice under the plates (: (: (:

but in the end, we feel like puking though.
so we gonna restrict ourselves from having sushi and sinful food for months.
just fruits will do! (:


i haven been taking self photo for some time alr. so it's abit weird when i'm camwhoring myself. xxxx